Thursday, January 19, 2012

the meaning of life? is the meaning you give it....

 Hello! Long time no blog. I have been in transformation. Less art for display, more of just doodling and connecting with my soul. Its been nice.... I love keeping a journal that is just for me, (and anyone who reads it when I am long gone....)
 But life is good. I have a husband who supports me to live my dreams. You know... Mr Messyfish!
 I had 22 penfriends around the world when I was a child. When I finally had the choice to study whatever I like, I choose Social Anthropology. The study of living culture. I focused on India and South East Asia. I thought I was going to be an anthropologist when I graduated from Uni, and I was going to live in the cultures. I was too unconscious however, and didnt realize that I could make decisions... For Me about my Own life. Instead I fell into a life of cooking. I love food and markets and cooking and celebrations around food too. So I was a chef for 20 years. (Really I was a blocked artist...and all this was one big distraction the kept me form being connected to my truth)
 We love out home. I have choosen to be a stay at home mum. I want to give my child time and experiences. I felt the best way to do this when he was young was not to have someone else care for him, while I go and earn money. I have had a career. I have nothing else I would rather do at this point in my life. We decided to spend less, so I didnt have to work. We found a tiny house in the country to rent. I make my own laundry powder and bread. We cook everything from scratch. I sew my own clothes, and rarely get a haircut. We use the library and the parks and anything else that is free. We also buy heaps of books and have a great internet connection and go on lots of family holidays together. Its our balance. What works for us. everyone is different. We all do things differently.
But....if I had to spend the rest of my life sipping lattes whilst watching my kid play at the park and in the shopping malls....I would have to stick a fork in my eye. I want to live in this big amazing world. I want to go everywhere and do everything!
 So Mr messyfish has a job...and so do I. His job has him turn up to a place everyday. My job...well....I dont have to actually be anywhere. I can be wherever  I like to do my job. I am a very fast reader. I love reading novels. But since little messyfish was born, I have not read a novel. I have read a Uni degree worth of early childhood theory. We have spun from Attachment parenting, Montessori and Steiner all the way back to Radical Unschooling. The only novel I have read was "Female Nomad". I read it in 3 days...which indicates a strong interest alright! So how do i live with other cultures and look after my child? I have no idea...but I am going to give it a little go.

In VIETNAM !!!!!!!!!!!!
....We are booked, waiting for our 3 month multiple entry visas our "pop up" travel mosquito net to arrive in the mail, and we go next week!

Its ok, I will most definately be recording this awesome trip with photoes.  Ill put a flickr link on my side bar near my other flickr accounts, and upload my pictures as I go. I am on facebook too, so email me for "friending". And I intent to skype mr messyfish and other close relations so we can stay intouch.



Lots to do for little messyfish...lollies, fish, even the pavement will be interesting for him! Me? well...I am peaking with excitement. Full of fear and anxiety, because I am doing something I have always wanted to do but never "allowed" myself to do. All because I had thought systems that prevented me from being me. Art and travel...could life be any better? (probably and always). oh and the Pho......

4 comments:

robbie said...

have a great time the messyfish family. I know you will...

Julie said...

OMG...I am so excited for you!!! Can't wait to see all your photos and hear your stories!!!

I love that you put your old blog banner back up...it just seems more like "you"!!

Have a great trip!!!!!

Lynn said...

this is such a dream coming true. so on ly you and little messyfish are going to travel together leaving mr messyfish at home to keep earning money so you can travel? LOL What fun. How exciting. What a wonderful SCHOOL for your son. Enjoy enjoy enjoy. I look forward to coming along via your blog posts!

Caroline said...

What an amazing experience this will be for you both! Happy travelling and Good luck!