|take a seat! We are going to stay in Nha trang for a bit...|
|The weather was the most perfect ever, with sea breezes, things to do with children and fabulous food and amenities. give me that chair, we want to stay a while|
That night, I walked to the same busy roadside food stall for dinner, with the rice, pork, egg and pickled veg. It was so delicous I was looking forward to eating it all afternoon. Little messyfish did not eat again, but he did have a hot dog and chips for lunch, and some bread and cornflakes for breakfast. I really wish he would eat fruit and vegetables. He was getting skinny again. He was breastfeeding more than usual, I suspect to comfort him through all the change, so i knew that he was getting nourishment from somewhere! On our walk to dinner, he said to me that he want to stay in this place for a long time, and that he did not want to go back home. I was suprised at this, because it felt like all i was doing was screaming at him to stop running and to come back and to hold my hand all the time. I guess a fun day at Vinpearl land and all was forgiven. I also think that I am particularly sensitive to being mean to my kid. I dont like it, and if i cant be helping him to do what he wants, I feel like I am not doing a good enough job. I dont want to be the mum who controls my child. Instead I want to be the mum that says yes. I want to find a place we can go where I can say Yes! Run! Enjoy!
Why does Little messy fish like this crazy place where I say NO! STOP! all the time? Where he doesnt like the food, and where there are people always pinching him, asking him questions and teasing him? Oh My! The vietnamese love to tease children. they think its hilarious.
He needs more stimulation. He is ready. He spent the whole day out and loved it. I need more community. I need more real life freinds. Time to move again I think. Time for Mittagong perhaps? there I can craft, and write and do art and garden and celebrate festivals. Little messyfish can enrol in the preschool there for the day if he wants too. It would be good for him and me and mr messy fish. It would be closer to mum too.
Today was the first day where I have had hardly any anxiety, and where i have had fun and enjoyed my time in Vietnam. I had no idea that I was going to fill up my journal with writing, and Ive done hardly any art. Ive been busy researching, checking, "studying for my exam!", hoping to pass the lonely Planet tests? Another big waste of my time, another block to my art and creative pursuits. Ive decide to stay another week here to settle down, especially now that little messyfish says that he wants to stay. Then after that I will go to Hoi An. Then hanoi and Luang Prabung and Chaing Mai, or Sapa and Mai Chau. Well, all or none of those places...I am not sure now about anything. And what about Angkor? I need to do another mini plan. Mid february- Nha Trang, march- Hoi An, Mid March- Hanoi and Halong Bay and Sapa, April- Luang Prabang, Mid April- Hanoi and fly out as per my booked ticket.